I am concerned, with good reason, about myself and my future. On my mother's side of the family each and everyone of them from Grandmother down have suffered from Alzheimers. My mother often mixes things up and repeats herself time and again but she still seems to be going strong, thankfully. So I wonder if I should be worried about little things that happen to me, like for instance I have gotten into my car before now, started driving only to have a complete blank mind as to the route I should take to get into town (we've only lived here for 30 odd years!). So how do I determine whether I'm just forgetful due to age (a very young, sprightly 55yrs!) is it normal to forget words in the middle of a sentance? Names of people, places, things, etc? Whether or not 've seen a particular film (not all the time but just sometimes I can sit thru half a film only to find I've seen it already). And what about where I've put something when I want to keep it safe? I always wonder if I should make a note of the safe place in a file but decide against that as it would no longer be a 'safe' place and then spend days (and I'm deadly serious here) looking for the damned thing whatever it is which I invariably find when I'm actually searching for something else!!! And we'd best not start on the going upstairs for something only to remember it once I'm back downstairs again!!!
So, is this the beginning of Alzheimers? Mother decided to ask the GP if she could be tested for it and was told there was no test and not to worry (at least this is what she thinks the GP said to her, but can't quite remember!!!). On my father's side I have an aunt who is 96 yrs old and she has the most amazing mind, she is all there and hardly forgets anything, I'm hoping I will take after her and not my dear dad or his mother who both died in their early 60's of massive brain haemorrhages.
I am determined, dear reader, to live my life to the full, have lots of fun, be daring, outrageous and maybe sometimes a little disgraceful at least when the time comes for me to bow out of this existence nobody can say I haven't lived. I have taken on so many roles in this life and I have laughed and loved through all of them, but the details of these roles are saved for another blog when I have more time, until then my dear reader I beg your patience..........
Sunday, 20 April 2008
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
Friends............
I've been giving some thought to the meaning of friends. I think there are many different feelings that people have for other people they know and they group these people they have the feelings about under the umbrella name of 'friends'.
Some people have few friends, some have many but how can we equate what we term as a 'friend' to another person's 'friend'? Am I losing you dear reader? Do try and keep up, it really does make sense, honestly!
Personally, I have many acquaintances, colleagues, and a few true friends. I am happy with this due to my perception of true friendship. True friendship is a rare and special gift, a union of souls, being totally honest with each other, a deep and comfortable connection between you, unconditional love and trust that is mutually shared and a lasting respect of each other.
There are times, as I'm sure everyone has experienced that one can 'know' instinctively that you really like a person or dislike that person, this often occurs in a first meeting (love at first sight!). I am convinced this has a lot to do with past lives in which we may have shared our incarnation with the soul of the person you have just met in this life. We may never know the actual relationship that was between us but I don't think that is relevant. I have learnt to trust my instincts in everything and I think i am quite 'highly tuned' as far as my feelings about people are concerned. The reincarnation theory certainly explains my love of Cyprus and how 'at home' I was there, in my first visit so many years ago. Also how 'at home' I was living in Germany. Sometimes I even yearn for another time, in a past life that I catch a glimpse of when I am in the woods, collecting firewood, or walking with my dogs, or helping to heal in some way.
Is this too 'heavy' for the reader? Possibly, but remember this is my blog and MY interpretation of things as I see them.
You are, as always free to read or not to read my offerings..............
Some people have few friends, some have many but how can we equate what we term as a 'friend' to another person's 'friend'? Am I losing you dear reader? Do try and keep up, it really does make sense, honestly!
Personally, I have many acquaintances, colleagues, and a few true friends. I am happy with this due to my perception of true friendship. True friendship is a rare and special gift, a union of souls, being totally honest with each other, a deep and comfortable connection between you, unconditional love and trust that is mutually shared and a lasting respect of each other.
There are times, as I'm sure everyone has experienced that one can 'know' instinctively that you really like a person or dislike that person, this often occurs in a first meeting (love at first sight!). I am convinced this has a lot to do with past lives in which we may have shared our incarnation with the soul of the person you have just met in this life. We may never know the actual relationship that was between us but I don't think that is relevant. I have learnt to trust my instincts in everything and I think i am quite 'highly tuned' as far as my feelings about people are concerned. The reincarnation theory certainly explains my love of Cyprus and how 'at home' I was there, in my first visit so many years ago. Also how 'at home' I was living in Germany. Sometimes I even yearn for another time, in a past life that I catch a glimpse of when I am in the woods, collecting firewood, or walking with my dogs, or helping to heal in some way.
Is this too 'heavy' for the reader? Possibly, but remember this is my blog and MY interpretation of things as I see them.
You are, as always free to read or not to read my offerings..............
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