Good evening Readers one and all!!
Where do I start? I guess with the most important news I have to write about and that is the loss of my most faithful companion Kaiser....my gorgeous boy was known by all to be a 'gentle giant' - dubbed a Labrador in a Rottie's coat. He was the softest, most trusting, loyal dog and I have been knocked off my axis by his loss. He was diagnosed with Lung cancer less than 2 weeks ago and since that time rapidly went downhill, I think we all wonder when the right time is to make the final journey with them but I knew it had come when he had had a bad night, trying to breathe and in the morning couldn't eat his brekky....the first time since he was just 6 weeks old that he refused food!! Then I knew....
The house is eerily quiet and seems so empty without him. As I come through the front door I still put my hand down expecting to feel his head nudging me until that cold stark realisation sets in that he is no longer here....
Yesterday morning I awoke having just had a lovely dream with him in it and then as consciousness began to take over I remembered and the tears overtook me. Of course all pet owners know that their pets will usually have a lesser lifespan than we do but even though we know this it is still devastating when we come to the inevitable time. I said I couldn't go through this again, it is the first time I have had a dogless home in 20 odd years, I don't like it at all. I am thinking that when I am ready I may well adopt an older dog who needs a kind loving home and one who would like as many cuddles as I do.
The next thing that is of importance to happen this weekend was that rather stupidly I tried placing my iphone across the top of a glass of water on my bedside cabinet - but of course dear reader you can guess what happened....yep, it fell into the water! I got it out straight away and dried it and put it in a bag of rice for 24 hours but unfortunately it's completely dead! Now common sense is not really my forte - well you can't have everything can you? So I have lost all my numbers, all my saved data and the worst thing of all is that all of my photos (over 2000 of them) have also gone - these sadly included my pics of my beloved Rosie and of course Kaiser and videos of them too. So apart from the fact that I am lost without my phone I have got to find the cost of a new one as I am not due an upgrade til next year. Oddly enough though although I am annoyed by my stupidity I can see it for what it is - an annoyance, not life and death stuff! So on I go, it's just another little knock really.
THis may seem odd but I feel as though something good is in the offing? Is that peculiar dear Reader? It;s just that life is so short and for me certainly not worth getting in a '2 + 8' about over a phone - it's more the loss of the photos I'm sad about however no one can take away the memories that will be forever etched in my brain.
My ex used to get quite cross with the fact that I was so positive all the time and that I saw the best in things/situations as opposed to his pessimistic outlook on everything. I feel sorry when I think back as it must have been very annoying for someone in such a frame of mind to be constantly in the presence of a person who constantly saw the positive in every situation, until I got depression that is....and he never even noticed that!
Enough for tonight will write again soon.
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